Trying so hard for ages to manifest love was heartbreaking. I wanted a loving partner. I am a good person and I deserve a good partner.
Why did it seem so hard? Why did romantic love continue to elude me for a long time?
It wasn’t until I got clear, made a list and BECAME the list Of traits I wanted in a partner that I actually manifested him.
He is nothing like what I had imagined physically. Yet, he is everything I had wanted and needed in my life emotionally.
We met online. A risk I was willing to take once again despite the tragedy my previous longest relationship ended up being. We became friends. I friend zoned him because I found his stability boring. It wasn’t until I read in depth about attachment styles and realised he was a secure attachment style and I was an anxious avoidant that things started to make sense.
I carefully treaded along. We remained friends for about a year until we had a fallout from my end. And then our paths crossed again.
My learning from this has been that no matter how hard you try, you have to become the lover you want for your lover to emerge and stay in your life.
You cannot say something that will make him walk away.
When he wants to stay, he will. And if he’s not ready, nothing you can do or say will make him ready. Finally, when both of you are ready, nothing can come between you both.
Relationships require patience, understandings and a lot of tenderness. If you’re anything like me and a lover of love and romance, you will learn to make it work.
If you are anything like me and an abuse survivor, you will eventually learn to trust again.
What worked for me? Writing a list. To the dot. Calling out to my soulmate on a soul level.
I knew when I was ready. It took me a long time to get ready..but eventually I was ready…when you are ready….your soulmate will appear. Until then, keep working on yourself and manifesting (Love)